Alesana - The last 3 letters lyric

dearest love,
 I hope this message finds you well
 as these endless thoughts drip from my soul
 every single word secretly paints a fairytale
 of when we will melt into one...

 eyes forfeit sight to the pain
 cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
 as I cling to memories of you
 I am so scared...so scared...I need you with me

 were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
 that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
 was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

 it's me again,
 is it me or am I wrong to be concerned?
 will the beauty of your pen ever cross my eyes again?
 was this all a lie? why?

 were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
 that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
 was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

 make it stop, make this pounding in my head stop
 fill my lungs with air, give me one more day to make her dreams come true
 she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
 she understands right? that I'm not coming back...
 make it stop, make the pounding stop
 I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back, I'm not coming back...
 I don't know what happened...who would have thought my life would end up like this?
 I didn't mean to hurt her, not hurt her like this...I can't feel my legs
 I can't feel my legs and I can't even cry...how could somebody die like this?

 if my words ever reach you I'll assume you don't care
 never knew that silence could cut so deep or that you could twist the blade
 now I curse all of your beautiful lies..
 I love you and goodbye...

 were the last words that I wrote for you enough to tell you
 that in my death the light that shone through my painful darkness
 was a blinding vision of your eternal smile?

 cold scalpel's steel whispers tear at my very core
 as I cling to my memories of you...